au revoir 2009

New year. New attitude. New style. New boy. NEW EVERYTHING!

I won't say I regret 2009 because I don't, you live and you learn. Though 2009 was a bit tough at times it made me realize that I shouldn't take life and the people in it for granted. Each passing year that goes by I grow from it and become more responsible for my own actions. I can say with confidence that I am more mature for my own well being. Though we all live for the future, my past came back.. not to haunt me but "to finish where we left off". I have to say I'm glad it did because I finally got my closure from it and my mind can now rest.

Someone once told, "The past is the past.. forget about it." and I think it's funny they say this because it's not true.. sure there are certain things we don't want to remember but once you've been through it, that's that. The past will always be apart of us and we take it and grow from it. Just like 2009, I'm taking what I learned with me into 2010.

We will see what 2010 has for me.. for us.. for everyone.

Hoping for a better, well educated 2010,

xoxo Rizza Joy

Tuesday Night

I suddenly feel sick to my stomach.. I hate this feeling and I hate nights like these.. make me feel better..

good times

today WAS a good day. I knew it from the start when I woke up at 10am this morning. I say this because I usually sleeping in till 2pm. I know it sounds pretty disgusting, but I've been sleeping around 4am lately =S

I will post up pictures soon. I've just been lazy to upload them to my laptop.

goodnight.

20 years young

Happy birthday baby girl! aka krista

update later*

kawaii

"From that moment on, I knew I had to do something.. I wasn't gonna let you slip away that easily. I'm glad I took my chances." =)

Fun day today. Went to a new restaurant in the village today, Kawaii Crepe.. after that went to watch Avatar in 3D, which by the way is a pretty intense movie. I was pretty into it =p
photo courtesy from @eff_uman

sunday evening

i've been thinking about the past couple weeks and it somewhat amazes me how fast life unfolds.. yeah, that is all.

woopwoop!

turned out better then i expected... considering i rushed last minute with the box harhar!

see through

if your confident enough to make your own pair of "Maurie & Eve swing see through tights" that cost $115 go for it and rock it out.
this is my practice cut. Id recommend buying a size down because once you cut your tights and stretch them out to make the edgy effect it loosens the feel. =)

remember the time

i am loving this girls cover for micheal jackson's - remember the time.

twitter is down

and because its down, i have nowhere to vent but here.. -_-"

not again.. are you fuggen serious? i really don't want to put up with anyone's BS right now so fuck it and goodnight... after my shower of course.

probably one of my biggest pet peaves -_-"

today was interesting.. annnd your sweet. sometimes HA.

mmmm old skool <3

new skool will NEVER replace old skool

Baby I know you'll find that what you needed was here and think about it my dear..But I gotta be strong, you did me wrong when I thought that we were really down.. So you say you want me, make up your mind, cause I'm not gonna be here for long.. You know you are my lover, you got me twisted over you.. I know I got what you need, so what you wanna do?

-keith sweat - twisted

my current obsessions of none that i have =(

ipod

brogue heelsbags with fringe
aldo shoes
aritzia
owl necklace (i saw a REALLY cute necklace at hush on osborne)

winnipeg has the strangest weather

i will be totally honest... it JUST started snowing TODAY! and i can tell it'll stay this time unlike last month when it snowed and melted the next day. YAY it's christmas now =) id take a picture but i'm lazy...

soo uhhh yeah? 2010 LA? LETS DO IT!!

last night

i had a dream i was graduating U1 and i thought i failed so i cried... but i ended up passing which made me cry even harder because of happiness.. COME TRUE PLEASE!!!

i lied when i said i wouldnt blog -_-

finals please be over soon.. i am NEVER doing full course again -_-"



mmmmMm jesse metcalfe ;) and it was only possible thanx to jen =) i love you <3

i fell in love at the apple store

for all you apple lovers... i thought this was genius =) <3

hi bloggers

i dont have much to say, but i got mad hooks ups for sushi! weee and i love twitter =)

shock me like an electric feel

i actually like my hair parted like this.. =)

dear blog,

ohmylordy

i think i will listen and wait.. your right

hm

if actions speak louder than words i should get to it! i'm sorry i'm so stubborn.. =( i don't do it on purpose.. I don't do anything intentionally! never

stressed

where is my 'confessional booth' =(

dejavu

why does it feel like I've been in this kinda of situation before.. i told myself i would never

why do I have to live under someones rules just because?

it doesn't make any sense and only I will understand because its happening to me

there's my blog for the month.. gonna be mia because of school. bye

i watched the moon rise in LA

i got to see the red rock canyon desert in southern california.. its BEAUTIFUL! and might i add humungo?!? i also got to see the moon rise =)

my plans have failed.. i might actually have to wait a few more years -_-

"i'm pretty" =)

funny true story..

ive been sick wednesday - friday

on friday i had a doctors appointment.. after the appointment me and my mom decided to go to polo and buy my new jacket and i was craving jugo juice.. most the people who work there are mainly flip.

i probably shouldn't have gotten anything from there because my throat was sooo super sore from my fever, which i btw still do have a sore throat

any way, the guy who made my drink asked my mom in tagalog (bare with the english i'm no fob =p) "is that your daughter?" my mom replies "yes"

and he says "shes always here"

and i'm standing there pretending i don't understand a thing

my mom asks if i understand and i say "yes, he said i was pretty"

they both laugh -_-

i misunderstood the guy because 'pretty' and 'shes comes her alot' apparently sound the same to me -_-"

bonjour

I feel protected when i get the feeling you are watching over me.. =)

just got home from work, made 90 dollars tip serving drinks at the UFC fight at the marlborough hotel.. i know, very nice!

im exhausted. goodnight <3

oh annie <3

this sucks

midterm tmrw! hope i do good... =(


oh and i finished my shredding project! i figured.. aritzia in winnipeg always gets late shipments. had no patience and made one myself =)
ps the red you see are my shorts

hello blog followers!

the weather sucks!

i think that's why my joints are acting up cause last week the weather was beautiful! now i feels as if its gonna snow tmrw.. and it doesn't help that i bus everyday to school =( fml..

today was the most crummiest day.. i feel sick =(

if i fall, its the end of me..

so i went on an adventure today.. be myself! and this is what i came up with. i'm up pretty high hey? =P


i haven't been updating much cause i've been pretty busy studying and working.. i'm actually thinking of quitting because that one weekend of working made me fall so far behind -_- why? WHY must there be so much reading?!?

busy life

I would have to say this was my most nicest picture from my birthday bash that i have since rina was a cam whore.. i swear all the pictures that were taken were of her. ew, rolls eyes SIGH!

ive been really busy with school so i won't be able to update much.. only if something exciting happens in my life =)

happy birthday to me =) *sept. 6

I will put up a few pictures from my birthday party (which i celebrated with friends on friday) soon when i find out how to upload them to my laptop =S

thanx romeo for hooking it up with VIP! your awesome! i had a blast

i wish you had the same understanding as me..

school starts thursday. i thought i was ready but turns out im not..

i really want to talk to you. like a REAL conversation. -_- sigh

my birthday is now complete! thank you for that =$

i just realized my owl shirt matches owl city..



i miss everything

random

looks like your having a good time with your life..

happy anni babe!

so much planning and errands to run tmrw.. well technically today..

its like the debut i never had =p

wheres my yearly birthday call? =(

you belong with me

"you've got a smile that can light up this whole town,
i haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down,
you say you're fine,
i know you better than that,
hey what you doing with a girl like that?"

aww I actually really like this song <3

feeling extra happy today!

which is funny considering my horrible nightmare! ok.. it wasnt reeaaally a nightmare but to me it was... and it made me cry because i thought it was REAL! =(

i hope my party goes as planned, kevin was able to get me VIP but the booth wouldve been sooo much. any ways details later or never =p

gotta get ready for work!

are you there or are you just a decoy dream in my head?

my heart tells me yes.. you are there =)

sigh

so my birthday is coming up ;) hopefully everything turns out as planned. that includes....

"I dreamed you now every night, in my mind is where we meet."

I had another dream. its amazing how you can dream of someone who's miles away and see there face as if it were real..


soon



anyway, my plans today are to hang out with krista and dmo. sushi and gelati?! its quite a nice day to spend outside considering yesterday was a crap ass weather.

...

Time together is just never quite enough.

When we're apart whatever are you thinking of?

What will it take to make or break this hint of love?

So tell me darling do you wish we'd fall in love

All the time..

VENT!

I hate having to listen to your BS when you are wrong, wrong, WRONG!

meh

you of all people should know I'm grumpy when I have no food... 7 hour shift and only a pretzel to eat.

meh whatever.. i guess you can just say i expect alot.. rolls eyes

long as I live you will always be..

quite determined to save for cali next summer, I've always wanted to go there. seems like a VERY beautiful place.

I haven't updated much on here because I'm always working or out..

but school is coming up, and I'm quite excited to get it over with. Oh how I love the university atmosphere <3

well, gotta get ready for work

happy birthday boyfriend

I am SO excited for university 8]

7 months

thanx babe, you the fucking best.. i needed that =)

its whatever.

all work, and preparing for school = no play/fun

how fun is my summer? super fun, right? WRONG! its so shitty and with this crummy weather it just makes things so much worse. GAYNESS!

i feel like i cant do anything anymore.

it would be nice to do something with no guilt, but unlucky me everything comes with it.

i miss being carefree =T

shh..

lately i just don't feel like talking much..

meow

they're all part of the list, things that I miss..

Style of your hair,
shape of your eyes and your nose,
the way you stare
As if you see, right through to my soul,

It's your left hand and the way
that it's not quite as big as your right,
the way you stand in the mirror
before we go out at night,

Our quiet time,
your beautiful mind,

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
or the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

The way you sweet smell
lingers when you leave a room,
Stories you tell as we lay
in bed all afternoon.

I dreamed you now every night
in my mind is where we meet.
and when I'm awake
staring at pictures of you asleep.

Touching your face,
invading your space.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
or the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

Oooh, and you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.
And you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
or the way you smile, or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

we're just different people..

and i see it now -_-

the weddings in two days.. and i have homework to complete.. and a test to study for.

feeling slightly ill,

and i still think this is dumb.. its just not fair =(

lovers thing

you always said communication is key but what's ironic is I'm the one doing all the communicating.. you just want to forget whatever problem we're facing and start a new day. well you know what? its not that easy.. things will get worse because you can't build a relationship like that.

you said you were ok with me talking to my friends, whom are believe it or not are guys. you told me you would feel bad if you didn't want me talking to him because he's my friend.. few days later you bitch at him for messaging "hello" was it necessary? NO! and because "he's a sliver in your thumb is no excuse"

whenever i brought up past experiences and how i got screwed over, you basically told me the past is the past and to not talk about and i never talked about them after that because i know you were nothing like them and it was a waste of energy bringing them up because i had you.. whenever we had an argument, you always bring up how so-and-so in the past. and when i wrote that note on facebook you told me facebook doesn't need to know.

I understand your mad, upset, disappointed, sad and all these other emotions but that gives you no right to tell me to fuck off and tell the world i 'cheated' on facebook, to tell me I'm just another one of your ex girlfriends but worse, to end our relationship over two friends getting off work who are hungry and just so happens my house is on the way.

you say you love me yet you don't want to work things out.. EVER! i guess it IS dumb on my part to agree to go out, but i don't understand why your telling everyone that you would pick me up from work when i am 100% POSITIVE you did not say such a thing. me not hearing you say that is NOT me not listening.

are YOU proud to be canadian?

Whenever I need to vent, my laptop isn't available.. it's never the same when the mood is gone! SIGH

the saltwater room

My new fetish.. owl city. I was browsing other blogs and stumbled across a certain one that was playing one of their songs, sigh* I feel like I fell in love all over again.. Anyways, my day is practically over and may I add that it was quite a day.. I tried my best to study at home but I kept getting distracted so I finally decided to study at the university, although it didn't go as I planned it would. Took the 16 and got off on confusion corner and took the 70 instead of the 60 because lazy me didn't want to wait the extra ten minutes... I should've waited. why? because the bus driver totally screwed me over! the bus said University of Manitoba, and I even asked the bus driver if he goes to the U of M and he said yes, so I got on. Little did I know, it goes all the way down pembina not the university. -_- never again

beautiful day.. stuck studying..

I'll write an actual blog when I'm actually available.. gotta study for tomorrow. lets hope I do well =S